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There were been quite long period i din't updated my blog... Well, here am I now.. Our 1st monthly test was just around the conner, again, i did't prepare any thing yet... feeling stress... Even i am here for few months, still, I'm not able to adapt the life of being a form6 student.. For me, I really got lack of time seriously
as after school we have to attend lots of tuition classes, tons of assighments needed to be completed on time, attend ko-ke aktivities... Haiz... i just need more energy to cope all this...

Another, MUET, a subject which make me feel doleful... English subject always a vulnerability of myself.. As the test is approaching, I just need to blush up my english proficiency ,heighten english vocab and gramma and also be able to converse in English fluently without any grammatical errors within two months time to make sure strike at least a band 4 in MUET...

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最近，发觉很多事物都在改变。。
人的心也好，情感也好，一直不停的，都在变化。。
也许，这一点我们都知道。。
但，有时候。。
当一切发生得太快时，
难免会让人一时接受不了。。
会让人受伤。。

一直以来，
我都觉得，
真正的朋友，
比任何的事物，
都更值得被珍惜。。
真正的友情，
是需要双方的付出，
是需要一颗真诚的心。。
真正的朋友，
会在你困难时出现，
然而，
平时的你我，
是否忽略了他们的存在呢？

要成为好朋友难~
成为知己的却少中又少，
知己，
能从你细微的动作，
了解你的习性。。
能从你谈话中，
了解你的为人。。
顾及你的感受多于自己，
从中为你着想。。
然而，
是否你我，
都给于他们了相同的对待呢？

人生中，你们又拥有过多少真正的朋友呢？
他们现在又在那了呢？
是否你有想过，
他们的付出，
他们的关怀，
他们对你的好，
并不是理所当然的。。
只有一方在付出的友情，
不会维持的久吧。。
好好珍惜你所拥有的，
不要再让他们从你眼前消失。。

谢谢你，
在天空有点灰时，
为我准备了雨伞。。
朋友~





thx to u~
Elaine
Pei Fong
Tami
rui

very appreciated that~


Everything have been draw with an end~
Drinking a cup of coffee,
trying to alleviate tension,
and continue wit my books...
我希望你是我永远的天使~

Freaking unlucky~

What an unlucky day.... My wallet been stolen..! At school!!

Annoying... Moody to write out any things...






Stop blaming on me k.. I more sad than eveyone that my money been stolen

Holidays~ again..?

1st time I met such occurrence which i just studied for 3 weeks then have another 2 week for holidays. Should I say it's a delight or an unpleasantness... =.=''' But for me, holidays will be boring until the end...



29 of may~ Fahrenheit (飞轮海) came to auto city and had a small concert. Althought i not a fans of them, I also went there to take part in merriment with my sis, Elaine.. While the time i reached there, many people were crowded and jostle against each others in front of the entrance.. So, we changed our plan to not going into inside even we have the tickets... After taking our dinner at Swensen, we straight went segrafedo which has a nice view to the stage.(By the way, the food in Swe**** really not nice at all and have little bit expensive..zzz..) Then i met Gong Zong , Yin jee ( you fat jor lo =.=''), suey ting ,may theng,amanda and huihui ( this 2 ppl know eat only la =.='') and others... In conlusion, I very enjoyed on that day~ I lazy to write on more detail...





Crowded with Fahrenheit's fans~


In segrafedo~~

3rd day of the holidays,same as usual, doing nothing at home except on9 , eat and sleep.. Well, some of my classmates were going to matric, some leaving for the july colleges intake and some just received the letter and prepare to fly to another country.So,Wishing all fo you all the best in your journey. Haiz... feeling a little bit sad, left me alone struggle in form6..

In form6, I just need more and more enthusiasm to continue my stuff but i have none of it.. Why huh? then when the exam comes only i feel stress and tension, then burn the midnight oil at the eleven hour.. And end with failure in exam.. Zzz... Everyone told me must work hard in form 6 but i just 'lenggan-lenggan' all days... =.='''

Actually, when i am sad... Who will know this.....? I'm vy sad this few day~ Many things have lead me to frustration.. I hate June, which give me a sence of that i will lost everythings this month... At least, in the past i was... I scare to lose.. again... I hate this feel... I so hardly to keep pretending but how long coluld I?

Since when I become so useless.... Until i cant even face a dilemma... haiz...

Thx to u~ Elaine.. For acc me in concert.. ^.^

I must work hard~~~!

New life have begun~

Currently, the matric 2nd batch intake name list were promulgated in the net.. Well, again, i'm been rejected... Indeed, it's under my expectation because my result are almost impossible to contend with those top student who strike straight A in spm... So, I just accept the result.. Next, my form 6 life... actually it is not so bad as i thought . Here,I met again all my friends and classmates. !st week of of form6 class was quite relax but i knew it's just a short period of relaxation, it will be much more stress afterward i think~ The lesson are going into more deeper and tougher especially science subjects and math , and same as others people did, i have to attend those tuition biginning next week... Haiz, tuition again~

Secondly, I felt deep of resentment at the way Someone has treated me..I know he won't view y blog and i also wont mention who is that person. Just I gonna to tell you, YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS and remember what u had did....! !

Honestly, I am lazy to update my blog but i wil try post something once a week... That's all for today~
I'm not in the writting mood actually~



In the nature there are unexpected rain
In life there are unpredictable vicissitudes~

感觉~

不完美~电脑回来了~ 

这回我有很多东西写,

但又不知道我想些什么,

ZZZ~ 茅盾...

中六,

真的不是玩玩的,

虽然开始看起来不会很困难,

但,慢慢的,就不懂老师再说什么..

每次没读书的我,

上课时终会很吃力的...

要努力了...

(谁叫我进不了matric~) =.='''

这几天,

真的不在状态下,

心情没好过~

在大人的眼里,

我还是没长大吧~

周遭的人与物,

都不断的随着时间而改变,

没人知道下一秒会发生什么,

你无法预测,无法控制,

每次的结果,

未必是那么的美好...

你所拥有的,

不代表你不会失去,

一切过程,不会永远是完美吧~

但,无论是什么发生,

能做到的,

只有坦然地接受,

坦然地面对,

悲伤不会改变结局,

时间也不会因此停止..

世间无常,

执著会让自己更痛苦~

放开,

世界会更美好~

Early morning~

  Outside the rain pouring, It was so snug and comfortable in bed..But i did not know why i could getting up so early... Maybe i had  a bad dream just now..Hrm... Whatever la~

   Recently  felt a bit lazy~ But still, i like my simple life...   

Pereparing myself to attend the lesson again~ Bye..

灰色地带~

    很久没这种感觉，灰色的天空，沉重的心情。。我试了很久，始终压抑不住我的情绪~最近，很多事让我很心烦，我需要解释还是掩饰？ 掩饰我的心情，掩饰一切的，我真的能吗？

   实在的，我一直认为，我个人没什么优点，缺点却很多~ 所想所做，多朝向悲观方面。自认没能力做得比别人好 ~ 

   是的，我好胜，我一直都想要赢，但，同时的，我却是一路上的输家。。我一直想，我有条件赢吗？我会比别人好吗？真得太多了，我没什么力气在环绕这问题。。

人生中有很多灰色地带，你无法解释，无法辨别，到底他是属于黑或白。。当中的内容，唯有你一人独知，唯有你一人独受~

   我不曾要求人人都接受我，但只求不会人人都讨厌我~ 一生中，对于我曾伤害的，我曾得罪的，只能在此说声对不起。。 

     

‘‘成功的骗子不需要靠欺骗来谋生，因为被骗的全都成为他的拥护者”  莎士比亚~

那，我在再地解释也是无谓吧~

  Just now, my dad sudden ask me about British Counsil lesson after i told him some of my fren also going along there and same with my last time classes~ The stoty begins, 

DAD: ''So, why do you stop attending the course and not completing your upper intermediate lesson? You still have 2     term only what?

ME:''...... Thinking myself~(useless what,it din really help me much in improving my eng,so...)

DAD:''why u always waste money? And giving up halfway?........... bla bla bla~~~''

ME:''........( I 'm helping u save money ok, and the cert is not necessary also)

In the end, i din say anything.... I wrong again huh~~ Maybe....

 

 

A begining~

    Hrm... My holiday really full with inanition.. Aways do nothing..sleep,eat then sleep again... All those thing keep cycle  from day to day.. So, my dad had made a decision for me ~ Well, he never dicuss with me at the time he registers  form6 lesson for me and it really causing me a big shock...

However, It's not a bad thing for me as i could have a chance to self-prepare before form6...But,when i saw the schedule, from 7.45am util 5 pm, I'm really unwilling to continue those lesson.... Unfortunately... I have no choice~~~ ZZZZ

     The 1st lesson quite fun~ Math T which was an amusing lesson and i think i will  like this subject..

Then i met Chan Riang, Shi Bing,Keh Qing,Yee Ling and much more at there... So, It is a beginning for my new journey....  I have to put more and more effort on the next lesson...

      Today~ I were angry about something actually... Ok, forget about it la... I promise i wont write anything about that again...If i did something wrong, i appologise... OK? ( I still wonder what had I done) Erm... Being an opportunity here~ I want to appologise to everyone who i offend before,who i digust bofore, who i hurt bofore... Sorry  for causing such trouble and brings suffering to you all....I'm earnestly apologise to all of you~~~ SORRY...

     Next... mention about our Princess YP.... ''Yun pei ar... see how big face u r''  ZZZ~~~

Well, last Tuesday, we heading to Qb because of Yi Quan who alone waiting a us at there, pity~~

Then we skate again until use up all energy of our body~~ Skating really is a good exercise  by the way~ After that, we go to sea side which near the QB mall~

  

                                                     OurPrincess and me~ 

What's going on with me?? =.=//

Seem like they also not siok wo~~~

=.=///

p/s: Ms YL, u DIN give me ur photo on that day leh~~ =.=///

Have a nice birthday lor... then afterward happened something,

 don wan mention already la... 

Cloud's birthday

  Time       : 12.01 a.m.

Date        : 31/3/09

Weather :~~

    There was a big moon and hundreds of stars were shining overhead. Guest what are the special day today?.... Haha~~straight to the title la.Today is our princess Yun Pei's birthday...The Diety of Longevity of the day~ 

Hrm....

Then I wish u:

-always pretty +leng lui la

-always healthy la

-always stay as 18 years old la

-always have good result in ur futher education la

-always stay at good mood la(=.=/)

-always happy la~

-always have a good luck la~

-wish all ur dream comes true

Hope u will enjoy all along the plan today...

To be continue~~~

Moody~

      Wo... It seem i quite long din't update my blog.

     Honestly, it's really make me  dejected and despondent these days after i had took my spm result last week.My result~ I could say bad.. ( I'm not meant to offend anyone here)  ..I really unsatisfy with it.. All my frighting-spirit and will-power were gone... And yet, i still digressed from the title in my essay writing... ZZZ  After that, my parent were slightly tell off me for putting more effort on my futher studies... =.=

    Okay,Let's forget about result, and now here comes the question...  ''where shoud i go?''

"F6 or college?'' If college, which will be better? What courses should i take ? These vexed question really causing me in vexation... In the end, I have no idea about it... Maybe 

Utar, which i fulfil the minimum requirement of the scholarship provided..(it's more cheap and wont burden my parents)   or F6 , or even IBM.... Well, I am too poor to enter those 'famous' college which charge me an expensive fee... =.=

      Yesterday, something had happened causing me absolutely devasteted for whole day... It's was so embrassing and i won't mention here ( due to my own safety).. Just hoping you will forgive my selfishness~~ 

~skip~

      My holiday were extremly bored... Every day will be the same for me... Oh ya~ almost forgot to mention... Some of my friends are going to 2nd batch NS.. I don know what should say to them, but wish them good luck and all the best in NS.. 

           

           A man, who you worth to love,won't bring you a tear~  

                                                                                                        By Deckson

                                                                                         

                                                                            and sori,i'm not the one u worth to

                                                                                                                        

                                                          

     

        

       

        

 

Bye~

Don't know what to write~~

Just I  know...

i cant sleep at all~~~

Very very nervous.....

My mind is blank and unfunctional now.......

   

GOD!!!

Pls Bless me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不眠的晚上~

     夜深了，凌晨三时三刻，下起了细雨，绵绵密密的。。。此刻心情显得特别平静。。

      斟上一杯咖啡，慢慢特品尝那苦中带点淡澈的沁香~ 心中突起细碎的欣然..曾经是那么执著于茶的芳香..像是突如其来的忘了~理说当然的~~或许,特别的夜晚,特别的感觉...

    门外的风轻轻的吹进,透出丝丝的温暖.时间仿佛停止,依稀飘出淡淡的伤感.风来雨往...轻轻忽忽的,像是清越的弦,随着雨中的璇，敲着素净的音乐。。纯净的大地，带着清凉的风滑过脸孔，仿佛将心底的渴望隐匿于风雨之中~~

    

    人生，会不会像这场雨，在不经意时而来，真实得让人难以触摸，又在恍然未知离去~ 夜雨里，让人回忆起，过去的故事~　很多人来过，很多人也走了。反反复复，梦里的花落了,为了谁零落又为了谁开?当繁华褪尽,器尘依在;风是风,雨是雨,我依旧是我,那你又是哪个你?

    窗外的水珠,像串串晶莹,落成一场场不复的往事.. 悲伤与思念交织..不知下一刻又成为谁的泪水...

想起,人的聚与离,只是平常事儿已...就像梦里梦外,清醒了,什么都不是...月不曾歇,日不曾停...不经意的偶遇,不经意的停顿,而天涯海角,成为了心中的村庄,人以人之间,成为了精神上支柱..然而,而故事不曾在预料中发展,真实与虚假,是不是应该模糊不清?

     过去了的日子，还有远逝了的人，依旧象雨后的天色，清澈明了。交错的时光，再也不会回头，像一场雨，无悔地下过之后，再也寻不回当初的颜色。我习惯了沉浸于往事，总觉得那年的阳光比今时的灿烂，就象此刻的雨，也少了那时的温柔与浪漫。很多时候，习惯了搜寻一切的理由，让自己去忧伤。爱过，恨过。来了，也走了。所有的美好，都成了不可或缺的伤痕。

    

    孤单落寞的感觉,不停在心中涌现出来~~  细雨停了,风也静了. 

    

    或许,曾经,是过于执著;雨下得久,也有停歇的时候,而人累了,是否可以从头再活一次??

   

 其实,无论得到或是失去,都不悔的走过了..

       

    

   　

Congratulation....

   As the time passes,trend changes. The beauty of yesterday might be the ungly of today.Nowadays, most of people will brag themself that they are in professional qualification course which can find lucrative jobs in future.. In this case,many professional qualification courses have fading down and create intense competition amoung of us to get those courses...  On the other views, the impact of economy recession and financial crisis on most of manufacturing field leads to many unemployment case appearing....So, a question has raiesd in my mind,... What courses should I take?? 

    Last saturday,GZ,CC ,cheez een (i thk i misspelled) and I were went to "The Star education fair''...(yun pei and yi quan wan come along too but due to transport problem........... Pitty)

Well, GZ of course be our driver and arrived there about 12.30p.m.. Actually, we don know what to do and what to ask about... Just waking arround and have a look on how huge were the fair was...haha~ AS a concluse in that fair, we din't brought any harvest back.. So, I now still wondering what course should i take which also won't burden my parents... 

      Oh ya, I have received a good news from my cousin at Alorstar,kedah... He took her STPm result this morning and found out that he get 4As in STPM...!! (3 A+, 1 A-)   Marvellous...!!!

But he told me he quite dissappionted and not satisfy with the result as he aim to get 4 flat and take medic  in degree... (Oh my god, then when i get my result sure i jump penang bridge ald)  Yooo~~ '' you already get a good resut what..!!!''  Congratulation to you lor....MAX..!(u changed to a nice name)

      Besides, he also persuade me for NOT GOING TO F6..... He suggested me a few collages such as: MMU( E&E engineering) , USCI (chemical E.) so on.... But how can i affort it with empty$$..

So, thanks your advise la~~ I still GOING TO F6...haha...

      Last but not least... CC and SC are not going to NS... Again changing thier mind~~ haha...

'Postpone until all people forget about that...'( hope that they will  postpone successfully until forever la)....

p/s: kindly enligthen me if any mistaken~ thx~

    I'm suffering from isomnia huh~ Don know why recently i can't even sleep at all... well~ It's not the 1st time for me..

   Last few day, when i woke up in a grey ,cloudy morning... suddenly, my dad yell,"...coming out next week.'' I can't heard it clearly about what my dad said as i stay inside room.. I wonder what news make he so excited.. However, I din't boardered what they were discussing and continue take a nap for a while as 7.00a.m is too early for me ... haha~

    

    When i woke up again, It's  almost 8.30 a.m... my parents were busying on their works at that time but not for me.... Actually, I would like to find some job instead of doing nothing at home , however, it seem i have missed the chances as most of the shops don wan a part time after holiday...  bad luck...

     After that, i took a newspaper and leafing thought it...  Much of my excitment... "SPM result coming out next week" was headed...

1st reaction:OMG... 2nd reaction; OMG OMG... =.=///  Started  feel intense anxiety, full of acute fear and nervous... All this feel bursh out from my body within few second .... Haiz... This news really tortured and annoyed me... Feel more frustrated.....

Before this still have many speculations have made that SPM result will come out 3/16... Hrm... But nothing different also la... 

       However, I knew regret and anxious were useless, I have to face the truth .... I knew how worst I did in the exam,so, that was nothing i could expect .... I have to admit that..... So, i wil think positive. This world full with many uncertainty.... Rite?? I'll embrace destiny of my life~~  (just an excuse to console me)

        Almost forgot to mention, my friends want go NS .... Sorry guys i cant follow u all as no reasons convince me to do so.... Haha.... So, good luck to you all la~ This make me have to plan another schedule for my leisure holiday~~ 

P/s: I'm new in blogger, so if any mistaken pls correct me~ I'll appreciate it....